Thursday, November 10, 2005

you could get with THIS or you could get with THAT

I feel like a sellout. So here's the deal: I remember being in classes and the profs would tell us if we ever work for (insert where I work here) then we wouldn't be able to be involved politically, wouldn't be able to be there at the protests, at the marches. Ouch!!!, I thought, but then I thought I have other interests too, I could still do those (other interests)-being the overly optimistic person that I am

This is really killing me. Really. I tried to join AAUW, which seems like a good organization, not too "contraversial" that would be a "problem" with the J-O-B. But unfortunately they only meet Saturdays and I work on Saturdays, so that hasn't gone too well. (hello!?! not all college graduates have that nice M-F 9-5) So I did find an organization that would be perfect-NOW. They have meetings that would fit with my schedule, and of course the organization is suitable for me-meeting my beliefs and fighting for good causes. As some of you know I was pretty active in college, and met some really great people through a feminist organization. in fact, aside from an old friend (mel, you rock!), I never had friends that didn't judge me for being me. It was great to meet other people who understood the concept of basic human rights!

BUT, I can't join NOW! It's a "conflict of interest" for us to join an organization that is so involved politically. i'm struggling with how big a part of me this is that I have to give up. In fact, I've been thinking of other careers I could enter where this wouldn't be a problem. I miss being surrounded by like-minded people. I miss being involved. There's so much I feel like I'm missing out on, but of course I still have to pay those bills. . .

I honestly don't think we'll be here longer than a few years. Because I hate it to be honest. Why do they call it the sunshine state when really it rains all the time? And why do people keep referring to it as paradise when it's full of ghetto houses and the crime is high, and the poverty level is so high there was a 3-mile line to get emergency food stamps after the hurricane, yet the houses cost almost a half a million dollars, or a quarter of a million if you can get a "good deal." I get so angry at how so many people are ignored. Sure, let's act like we live in paradise, meanwhile people are struggling to get basic needs like FOOD and SHELTER! But nobody wants to address that, people down here are blinded by their greed. Greed for how much money can be made by price gouging on properties to live in this so-called paradise. I get so pissed off at the injustices I see here. People in mobile homes are being kicked out of their homes because these greedy developers bought up the land literally from under their feet so they can build houses and make their money. Where will the people in the mobile homes go? Nobody seems to care. OH, and by the way, we are being kicked out from our apartment! I don't think I've written about that here yet, but yes, they are being converted to condos, and we cannot afford the "great price" they offered to us for our apt. so come march, it's grab the hankerchief and stick like bugs bunny and go who knows where?

I'll stop now, this is getting long.

After I get some experience who knows, maybe I can switch to a different kind of organization, or even a completely different job. I was thinking something in law enforcement-no, not a cop, but more behind the scenes investigator. I would enjoy that I think.