Thursday, October 13, 2005

Foot. . .in. . .mouth. . .

one of those cheesy expressions, I know, but I really felt that the other day I wanted to put my foot in my mouth just to shut myself up. I don't know why I'm the way I am , or if it'll ever change, or if I ever want to change the way I am. So I'm kind of a loner, am horrible at meeting new people, stumble over my words all the time, say stupid stuff all the time (and maybe that's why I try to stay quiet, there's no telling what will come out next!) A snob, he called me a snob! I hate when people assume I'm a snob because I'm quiet or perhaps said something that was misinterpreted. And I hate that when things like that happen I obsess over it although I know it is completely absurd. Like "I shouldn't have said that, I should have said this" <- nonstop thoughts in my head for the past 48 hours. BLAH, that's how I've been feeling. I seriously thought today that maybe its time to up the dosage on my Zoloft, cuz I shouldn't get so down over stupid things like that.


But let me be more positive here, I really don't want everyone thinking I'm all sad and lonely down here. Hmm . . . put together a girls night out last night, and that was pretty fun. Oh and I got a free ticket to a festival this weekend, where they are supposed to have some good Mexican food-mmmm! Oh, and did I ever mention that we got a Chipotle in a nearby town?! I've been missing that place, so good that we have one nearby.

8 Comments:

Blogger sylence said...

you're not a snob, ice, 'cause i don't associate with snobs... haha. little joke there. sigh. anyway...it sounds like your doing okay except for the occasional dumbass who can't see your true self. and what's this about a girls night out?! sounds super fab! wish i coulda joined ya, but alas, the republic has a grip on me--at least until august 2006, when my lease is up. haha!

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Blogger acakai said...

Yeah, I'm not a snob, I'm way too good for that shit. :) The girls night out thang was pretty fun, a bunch of the gals got together one night after work. I'm still not used to this whole adulthood thing, and separating work from friends or meshing the two together. Like when I'm around friends, I feel like I can talk about anything, but when I'm around people I work with, I feel like I have to watch what I say. Like I could totally tell you how I rented the movie troy just to see the nude scenes of Brad Pitt, and it would totally be worth the 10-bucks to pay for it! but I'm thinking things like that I should keep to myself in the work environment.

Oh, and the guy who called me a snob, he's really nice. But for some reason, whenever I'm around him I end up saying the stupidest things. HA HA, I said "I haven't met many cool people here." Then realized, wait I'm talking to a cool person, so I said "uh, I mean girls. . ." Oh wait, there's few cool girls who work here too. . . "uh, I meant outside of work?" Maybe I did sound snobby and should have said "I'm terrible at meeting new people! pLEASE HELP ME!"

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