Sunday, February 20, 2005

Still me

I was at my parents' house this weekend, visiting and picking up some old stuff. You know what I noticed? I'm still pretty much the same as I was when I lived there as a teenager. My wall was covered with pics of friends and poetry like a poem called "dear mr. president" that talks about the problems we have in this country that are ignored, poems on ending hatred, a poem titled "Censorship is unamerican," quotes on being prochoice, quotes about being yourself, quotes on increasing and accepting diversity, etc.

I know I've changed in some ways, like I'm not as sad/depressed as I was then, and I'm not as self-conscious as I was, and I've definitely put on some pounds (there were old clothes too that did not fit, I couldn't even get one skirt over my j-lo butt). But in so many ways, I'm still the same.

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

But, what about your husband???

So, it's my last week at work. Everyone knows I'm leaving to an entirely different state. The number one question I'm asked is the bewildered: "But, what about your husband?" And i wonder, if it were the other way around, and it was my husband that received a job in another state, would everyone be asking him "But what about your wife?" Would they be so concerned about my career, would they ask if I'm even going with him, if it were the other way around? What do you think?

Sunday, February 13, 2005

I hate the system

The system. The man. I hate it. Or maybe I'm just selfish. I hate that we (Americans) don't all have access to health care. I had health care one year from my job in grad school. But then the second year, due to budget cuts, our health care was taken away. So I bought a private plan. I thought it was a waste of money afterwards, like I basically handed the people a thousand dollars "just in case" anything happened to me, but nothing ever did, I just had a security membership card in my pocket for a year. Now, after that, I decided "why waste the money?" so I decided to wait it out til I got a "real job" to get health insurance. Just a few more months, I keep telling myself. This past week my husband and I were both sick with something. He went to the doctor earlier this week. "Tell me what we have," I told him in a hoarse voice. Thankfully, it wasn't anything serious, just the common cold I suppose.

Now, I have had these horrible chest pains. All day. And when I look at the medical web sites, the say to call 911 immediately if you have severe chest pains. Maybe I'm just being paranoid. Hopefully.

I've been using the free clinic in town the past several months. It's worked, since I haven't had any serious problems. Like, once I had a bad reaction to some ant bites. They helped me, they were great. But I still remember on one of my visits there, there was this young guy, maybe 19 or so who came in on crutches. "I heard you guys help out people who don't have health insurance," he said to the lady at the front desk. "Yes, we do...what do you need?" He told her he hurt his knee, and wasn't sure if he pulled/sprained/broke something. He didn't have any insurance and needed someone to have a look at him. The nurse informed him that the clinic didn't have x-rays and "really couldn't help him." He was sent away. He hobbled out the door, and I just remember feeling so bad for him. I still wonder what ever happened-will he have a lifelong problem with his knee, that could have been easily prevented with the proper care? But what could I do? Nothing.

So I will wake up early in the morning and call to make an appointment with the clinic. But will they turn me away because they don't have x-rays, or other equipment needed to help me?

I'm sure lots of people (ahem, like Republicans, I'm just being honest here) would blame me. I should have bought my own health plan to "take care of myself." It seems so rational, to lots I'm sure: You work, you get health care. But there's so many loopholes that are overseen. I work, I don't get health care from my job. I worked hard, I'm smart, I did the college thing. Didn't I abide by all the rules? Yet, here I am worried that I'll be turned away, not able to receive proper care that could be detrimental to my health.

I'm not trying to worry anyone here, I'm sure it's nothing serious. I'm young and healthy! But is it really so "radical and liberal" to think that everyone should have access to health care?

I remember in Michael Moore's Stupid White Men, he said he wished something bad would happen to the politicians and/or their families. Not in a malicious way, but because until it happens to you, you don't realize a lot of problems that exist. It's so easy to get stuck in your own comfortable little world.

Thursday, February 10, 2005

Now Hiring!

Help Wanted
Are you looking for a job where you can be underpaid, overworked, and underappreciated? Look no further, I have the job for you! Requirements include a bachelor's and master's degree in related field, experience working in the field, and an ability to handle multiple tasks under deadline pressure. No benefits are offered- that's no vacation days, sick leave, overtime pay, or health insurance! Position is part-time, in the evenings. You can sleep late and not have to even think about how broke you are, plus most days you'll sleep through breakfast so that saves an average of $9.76 a week in itself! You must pay for your own parking. Hourly pay is competitive with some fields, but not particularly in this field.

Sigh, yes, this was my job for a while. Thank goodness I only have one week left until I start a real job with real benefits! Yippeee-skippppeee! One of my recent responsibilities was to create a job description and post it on relative sources. How tempting to put a description such as the one above. But of course, I didn't.

So, did someone mention a going away party? I was out of town last week, sick this week, but now my calendar is (almost all) free. I'm leaving in just a few short weeks!